Bismillah
I really like to watch crime series, especially CSI: Miami. I think I used to want to be a police officer when I was growing up but in the end, I was not physically fit to be one. Heh!
Anyway, my friend told me that we have to take lessons from everything we do, even from watching shows. And the biggest lesson i've learnt from watching the series is that I want to die in peace or rather have a 'husnul khotimah'.
From all the episodes in the series, there is none, not one at all where a person dies in honour. It's either they were drunk, they were involved in crimes and been shot dead, or they had been sleeping not with their legal partner the night before. Maybe they are not Muslims so they do not really care about their death. They, for one, do not believe in retribution. But for muslims, to die in such a way is to die in vain.
The series makes me realise that I have to be careful with all my actions and that the last thing I do before I close my eyes permanently will be something that is beneficial to me in the akhirah and in His blessings. Amiin~
pathway
Berjalan Mencari Makna dalam Hidup
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
communication breakdown
Bismillah
Communication is key. A wrong choice of words can be disastrous. A lack of it also proves the same.
Initially, I thought my friend decided to unfriend me because he hates me. I kept mum about it for almost a month, then I decided I could not take it anymore. I send him a message telling him that he can unfriend me from real life if he wants to, but let's not take it in the virtual world. He replied saying it was accidental and he has no reason not being my friend.
This goes to show that if I had approached him earlier, I wouldn't be in so much stress, having negative thoughts and such. Everything will clear up faster if only I had the courage to speak up.
Same goes to when i'm asking for permission from my boss and my murabbi. Sometimes I tend to wait until the last minute before I inform them about anything, which sometimes can cause misunderstanding. It's not that I don't want to but i'm scared to know the answer. (I'm such a scaredy-cat)
But to be a good muslimah, for one, I have to be responsible for my communication.
Communication is key. A wrong choice of words can be disastrous. A lack of it also proves the same.
Initially, I thought my friend decided to unfriend me because he hates me. I kept mum about it for almost a month, then I decided I could not take it anymore. I send him a message telling him that he can unfriend me from real life if he wants to, but let's not take it in the virtual world. He replied saying it was accidental and he has no reason not being my friend.
This goes to show that if I had approached him earlier, I wouldn't be in so much stress, having negative thoughts and such. Everything will clear up faster if only I had the courage to speak up.
Same goes to when i'm asking for permission from my boss and my murabbi. Sometimes I tend to wait until the last minute before I inform them about anything, which sometimes can cause misunderstanding. It's not that I don't want to but i'm scared to know the answer. (I'm such a scaredy-cat)
But to be a good muslimah, for one, I have to be responsible for my communication.
tarbiyyah Allah
Bismillah
Tarbiyyah Allah itu ada di mana-mana. Bagi orang yang peka imannya, dia pasti boleh mengetahui bahawa Allah sedang mengajarkannya suatu hikmah. Bagi mereka yang kurang peka pula, tarbiyyah Allah akan terlepas begitu sahaja. Sia-sia.
Setiap hari pulang daripada kerja, suatu perkara yang paling aku tidak suka ialah berpusu-pusu semasa menaiki bas, apatah lagi harus berebut tempat dengan 'makcik-makcik indonesia'. Bukan nak mendiskriminasi mereka, tetapi hakikatnya mereka suka berbuat begitu. Sedangkan aku pula sudah terbiasa beratur sebelum menaiki bas.
Namun, jarang sekali aku bersyukur dan mengucap hamdalah apabila aku dapat menaiki bas walaupun keadaan bas begitu sesak. Maka Allah telah datangkan seorang hambaNya untuk mengajarku untuk bersyukur. Alhamdulillah. Allah masih sayangkan aku sehingga aku diberi peringatan tika ku alpa.
Banyak perkara sebenarnya yang Allah tunjukkan kepada kita agar kita mengambil pelajaran. Semoga kita diberi iman yang peka akan hikmahNya. Amiin~
Tarbiyyah Allah itu ada di mana-mana. Bagi orang yang peka imannya, dia pasti boleh mengetahui bahawa Allah sedang mengajarkannya suatu hikmah. Bagi mereka yang kurang peka pula, tarbiyyah Allah akan terlepas begitu sahaja. Sia-sia.
Setiap hari pulang daripada kerja, suatu perkara yang paling aku tidak suka ialah berpusu-pusu semasa menaiki bas, apatah lagi harus berebut tempat dengan 'makcik-makcik indonesia'. Bukan nak mendiskriminasi mereka, tetapi hakikatnya mereka suka berbuat begitu. Sedangkan aku pula sudah terbiasa beratur sebelum menaiki bas.
Namun, jarang sekali aku bersyukur dan mengucap hamdalah apabila aku dapat menaiki bas walaupun keadaan bas begitu sesak. Maka Allah telah datangkan seorang hambaNya untuk mengajarku untuk bersyukur. Alhamdulillah. Allah masih sayangkan aku sehingga aku diberi peringatan tika ku alpa.
Banyak perkara sebenarnya yang Allah tunjukkan kepada kita agar kita mengambil pelajaran. Semoga kita diberi iman yang peka akan hikmahNya. Amiin~
budaya baik kita amalkan
Bismillah
Saya suka perhatikan manusia. Pelbagai perkara yang menarik yang boleh kita dapati daripada pemerhatian kita. Dan segala yang baik yang kita dapati, boleh kita jadikan teladan dan amalan dalam kehidupan kita nanti.
Contohnya, orang-orang Jepun tak malu untuk merendah hati. Seringkali terdengar mereka berkata 'Sila tunjuk ajar' apabila mereka datang ke tempat yang baru. Mereka berkata begitu bukan kerana mereka tidak tahu (mungkin la), tapi (mungkin juga) mereka sangat menghormati mereka yang lebih senior di situ.
Kalau menonton drama-drama Korea pula, mereka sangat menghormati orang yang lebih tua daripada mereka, hatta perbezaan umur setahun sahaja. Yang abang dipanggil hyung atau oppa, yang kakak dipanggil unnie atau noona. Nak panggil seseorang yang baru kenal sahaja pun bukan main-main 'oi, oi' atau sebut nama sahaja, tetapi harus sebut sekali nama keluarganya.
Semasa di China pula, aku mendapat layanan yang sangat baik daripada masyarakat di sana. Setiap kali masuk ke kedai, aku akan disapa dengan ucapan 'Huang yin guang lin' (ejaan salah kot) yang bermaksud selamat datang. Apabila hendak pulang, mereka akan mengucapkan selamat jalan dan datang lagi. Sebagai seorang pelanggan, ucapan sebegini amat bermakna. Biarpun barang di dalam kedai itu ala kadar, atau makanannya kurang sedap, asalkan perkhidmatan pelanggannya first-class, pelanggan pasti suka.
Mereka mungkin bukan orang Islam, tapi budaya yang mereka amalkan mirip dengan ajaran Islam. Siapa kata kita tidak boleh mengambil pelajaran daripada mereka, kan? :)
Saya suka perhatikan manusia. Pelbagai perkara yang menarik yang boleh kita dapati daripada pemerhatian kita. Dan segala yang baik yang kita dapati, boleh kita jadikan teladan dan amalan dalam kehidupan kita nanti.
Contohnya, orang-orang Jepun tak malu untuk merendah hati. Seringkali terdengar mereka berkata 'Sila tunjuk ajar' apabila mereka datang ke tempat yang baru. Mereka berkata begitu bukan kerana mereka tidak tahu (mungkin la), tapi (mungkin juga) mereka sangat menghormati mereka yang lebih senior di situ.
Kalau menonton drama-drama Korea pula, mereka sangat menghormati orang yang lebih tua daripada mereka, hatta perbezaan umur setahun sahaja. Yang abang dipanggil hyung atau oppa, yang kakak dipanggil unnie atau noona. Nak panggil seseorang yang baru kenal sahaja pun bukan main-main 'oi, oi' atau sebut nama sahaja, tetapi harus sebut sekali nama keluarganya.
Semasa di China pula, aku mendapat layanan yang sangat baik daripada masyarakat di sana. Setiap kali masuk ke kedai, aku akan disapa dengan ucapan 'Huang yin guang lin' (ejaan salah kot) yang bermaksud selamat datang. Apabila hendak pulang, mereka akan mengucapkan selamat jalan dan datang lagi. Sebagai seorang pelanggan, ucapan sebegini amat bermakna. Biarpun barang di dalam kedai itu ala kadar, atau makanannya kurang sedap, asalkan perkhidmatan pelanggannya first-class, pelanggan pasti suka.
Mereka mungkin bukan orang Islam, tapi budaya yang mereka amalkan mirip dengan ajaran Islam. Siapa kata kita tidak boleh mengambil pelajaran daripada mereka, kan? :)
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Are We This Foolish?
Bismillah
There lived in a town a very rich man, who was given every comfort and luxury by Allah. He had a servant who was slightly foolish. One day the rich man called him and presented him with a gift saying: “Keep this in a safe place until you find someone more foolish than yourself. When you do, give it to Him.”
The servant replied: “Very good, Sir!”
After some time, the rich man became very ill. Many doctors treated him but there was no sign of recovery. He finally lost hope and called for his servant and said to Him: “I am leaving now. If I have caused you any grief, please forgive me.”
Servant: “Sir, where are you going?”
Rich Man: “Where everyone has to go.”
Servant: “When wil you return?”
Rich Man: “I am going to a place from where there is no return.”
Servant: “I see…Have you made your preparations for your comfort there, sir?”
Rich Man: “No.”
Servant: “Sir, have you made arangements to safeguard yourself from heat and cold?”
Rich Man: “No.”
Servant: “What have you done about your food and drink, sir?”
RichMan: “Nothing.”
Hearing this, the servant laughed and said: “Sir, this is most surprising. In your temporary home, you have made all sorts of arrangements of joy and comfort; buildings and bungalows, gardens and parks, servants and maids, beautiful cars, shops, factories and all sorts of luxuries, but for your permanent home, you have made no preparations whatsoever.
Now tell me sir! Where will I find someone more foolish than you? Hence I am giving this gift to you.”
♥ Moral ♥ :We should take time out and review frequently whether our actions are solely for the life of this world or for the eternal life in the hereafter.
There lived in a town a very rich man, who was given every comfort and luxury by Allah. He had a servant who was slightly foolish. One day the rich man called him and presented him with a gift saying: “Keep this in a safe place until you find someone more foolish than yourself. When you do, give it to Him.”
The servant replied: “Very good, Sir!”
After some time, the rich man became very ill. Many doctors treated him but there was no sign of recovery. He finally lost hope and called for his servant and said to Him: “I am leaving now. If I have caused you any grief, please forgive me.”
Servant: “Sir, where are you going?”
Rich Man: “Where everyone has to go.”
Servant: “When wil you return?”
Rich Man: “I am going to a place from where there is no return.”
Servant: “I see…Have you made your preparations for your comfort there, sir?”
Rich Man: “No.”
Servant: “Sir, have you made arangements to safeguard yourself from heat and cold?”
Rich Man: “No.”
Servant: “What have you done about your food and drink, sir?”
RichMan: “Nothing.”
Hearing this, the servant laughed and said: “Sir, this is most surprising. In your temporary home, you have made all sorts of arrangements of joy and comfort; buildings and bungalows, gardens and parks, servants and maids, beautiful cars, shops, factories and all sorts of luxuries, but for your permanent home, you have made no preparations whatsoever.
Now tell me sir! Where will I find someone more foolish than you? Hence I am giving this gift to you.”
♥ Moral ♥ :We should take time out and review frequently whether our actions are solely for the life of this world or for the eternal life in the hereafter.
credits: Islamic Book via FB
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
tapisan Allah
Bismillah
Alhamdulillah, ahad lepas aku telah berpeluang pergi ke AKRAB, satu program baru dalam usrah. Tujuannya ialah mengumpulkan para murabbi dan menyediakan suatu platform bagi membincangkan isu-isu dalam halaqah dan penyelesaiannya serta suatu medan ilmu bagi para murabbi mempertingkatkan diri.
Pada mulanya, aku terasa sedikit malas nak pergi, apatah lagi aku harus ke sana bersendirian. Tapi untuk suatu perkara yang baik, kena paksa diri walaupun malas.
Alhamdulillah, banyak perkara yang aku dapati menerusi pengisian yang disampaikan. Walaupun ada tajuk yang berulang, tapi setiap penyampai pasti ada pendekatannya tersendiri dan seterusnya membuat penyampaiannya unik.
Apa yang menggembirakan lagi ialah dengan kehadiran para akhawat. Rasa riinnndduuuu yang amat sangat dengan mereka. Yalah, kan tidak semua program yang dianjurkan aku dapat turut serta, sebab tulah lama tak jumpa.
*oppss.. dah digress pula*
Suatu kata-kata daripada seorang ukhti membuat diri rasa sangat berharga.
Aku mengenali diriku siapa. Sejarahku yang bagaimana. HambaNya yang penuh dengan noda dan dosa. Tapi kasih sayang Allah itu tiada sempadan. DitarikNya aku perlahan-lahan untuk mendekatiNya. Diberi aku teman-teman yang memberi sokongan untuk terus tetapkan iman. Diberi aku peluang demi peluang untuk memperbaiki diri.
Daripada berjuta hambaNya, kami yang terpilih untuk menyusuri jalan dakwah.
Daripada orang Islam yang ramai di luar sana, kami yang terpilih menjadi murabbi.
Daripada hamba-hambaNya yang ditapis, akhirnya kami yang diberi taklif.
Sungguh rasa diri tak layak, tapi sangat bersyukur kerana diri masih dalam perhatian Allah.
Alhamdulillah, ahad lepas aku telah berpeluang pergi ke AKRAB, satu program baru dalam usrah. Tujuannya ialah mengumpulkan para murabbi dan menyediakan suatu platform bagi membincangkan isu-isu dalam halaqah dan penyelesaiannya serta suatu medan ilmu bagi para murabbi mempertingkatkan diri.
Pada mulanya, aku terasa sedikit malas nak pergi, apatah lagi aku harus ke sana bersendirian. Tapi untuk suatu perkara yang baik, kena paksa diri walaupun malas.
Alhamdulillah, banyak perkara yang aku dapati menerusi pengisian yang disampaikan. Walaupun ada tajuk yang berulang, tapi setiap penyampai pasti ada pendekatannya tersendiri dan seterusnya membuat penyampaiannya unik.
Apa yang menggembirakan lagi ialah dengan kehadiran para akhawat. Rasa riinnndduuuu yang amat sangat dengan mereka. Yalah, kan tidak semua program yang dianjurkan aku dapat turut serta, sebab tulah lama tak jumpa.
*oppss.. dah digress pula*
Suatu kata-kata daripada seorang ukhti membuat diri rasa sangat berharga.
Aku mengenali diriku siapa. Sejarahku yang bagaimana. HambaNya yang penuh dengan noda dan dosa. Tapi kasih sayang Allah itu tiada sempadan. DitarikNya aku perlahan-lahan untuk mendekatiNya. Diberi aku teman-teman yang memberi sokongan untuk terus tetapkan iman. Diberi aku peluang demi peluang untuk memperbaiki diri.
Daripada berjuta hambaNya, kami yang terpilih untuk menyusuri jalan dakwah.
Daripada orang Islam yang ramai di luar sana, kami yang terpilih menjadi murabbi.
Daripada hamba-hambaNya yang ditapis, akhirnya kami yang diberi taklif.
Sungguh rasa diri tak layak, tapi sangat bersyukur kerana diri masih dalam perhatian Allah.
Memang sangat berat beban yang ditanggung, tapi cukuplah jika dapat melihat wajah Allah s.w.t dan bertemu Rasulullah s.a.w di Syurga nanti sebagai motivasi~
Friday, February 10, 2012
do good anywhere
Bismillah
Today, a girl in the bus caught my eyes. She was a normal-looking girl but her face emits nur. I had to admit, I was mesmerized. She preaches good deeds, not by words, but by mere personality.
This reminds me that as a Muslim, we have to portray our best whenever and wherever we are. Because Islam is a beautiful religion and we want everyone to see its beauty.
I remembered once a Muslim sister asked me where did I buy my jubah. I went out that day without even thinking that people will be looking. Alhamdulillah, my modest choice of clothing had perked a person's interest.
People might say bad things about you, they might have negative perceptions when you start doing good things. But that should not be the reason why we won't do it. Being shy should not be the reason too. If we want a good society, we have to start by being good individuals first. One good deed we do will inspire others to extend another good deed to someone else. Like a saying I remembered by Enid Blyton in one of her books, 'One good turn deserves another'.
So let's all start today. Choose one good deed you would like to practice then keep on doing it every day. InsyaAllah, it will be easier as the days go by and you will feel much happier too~
p/s: I chose to start giving salam to Muslim taxi drivers :)
Today, a girl in the bus caught my eyes. She was a normal-looking girl but her face emits nur. I had to admit, I was mesmerized. She preaches good deeds, not by words, but by mere personality.
This reminds me that as a Muslim, we have to portray our best whenever and wherever we are. Because Islam is a beautiful religion and we want everyone to see its beauty.
I remembered once a Muslim sister asked me where did I buy my jubah. I went out that day without even thinking that people will be looking. Alhamdulillah, my modest choice of clothing had perked a person's interest.
People might say bad things about you, they might have negative perceptions when you start doing good things. But that should not be the reason why we won't do it. Being shy should not be the reason too. If we want a good society, we have to start by being good individuals first. One good deed we do will inspire others to extend another good deed to someone else. Like a saying I remembered by Enid Blyton in one of her books, 'One good turn deserves another'.
So let's all start today. Choose one good deed you would like to practice then keep on doing it every day. InsyaAllah, it will be easier as the days go by and you will feel much happier too~
p/s: I chose to start giving salam to Muslim taxi drivers :)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
halal conscious
Bismillah
This is an old post and I feel I should just post it (after a few alterations) because it has stayed long enough in the drafts section.
This is from my personal observation and opinion, period.
Sometimes, I wonder, what is the purpose of the department responsible in issuing halal certificates if people do not adhere to it? As a Muslim, we are decreed to make the correct choice of what we consume. IT IS COMPULSORY. Those certificates are just guidelines. But somehow I feel it is better if food stalls display the halal certificates, even stalls that have Muslim employees because having Muslim employees do not guarantee the halalness of the eating place.
There are a lot examples that we can see from our surroundings. Muslims working in eating places that are not only don't have any halal certificates, but are also selling alcoholic drinks. And yet, many Muslims do not think twice buying from these places because having a Muslim worker is already enough an assurance. I feel bad...because it's been said that if there's a haram entity running through a Muslim body, his ibadah will be in vain. Of course, i'm not imposing on anyone. The question of one's ibadah, whether Allah will consider it or not is truly Allah's decision. I'm merely reminding myself and others too, we need to be responsible for whatever we consume. Stay away from the haram especially, and steer away from the syubhah.
But the question does not only constitutes the ingredients used in food and beverages. The income you use to buy food and drinks must also be from a halal source. Even if you buy halal items but with stolen money, the food itself will be haram to you, not because of its substance but because the money you used comes from a haram source. It's applicable also to food sellers. Because you work day till night attending your stall, you miss your solat.
Like I mentioned in my previous posts regarding solat, no matter in what condition you are, you are to perform your solat. Even when you forgot, the moment you remember, you must perform your solat. Which brings back to the question above. The food vendors miss their solat to attend to their stalls. What happened to the food? How is it classified? What happened to their income? Does it considered to come from a halal source? What about the customers?
I am standing at a crossroad, because this happens to someone who is very near to me. I desperately need the answers so as to calm my heart so. Wallahu a'lam
This is an old post and I feel I should just post it (after a few alterations) because it has stayed long enough in the drafts section.
This is from my personal observation and opinion, period.
Sometimes, I wonder, what is the purpose of the department responsible in issuing halal certificates if people do not adhere to it? As a Muslim, we are decreed to make the correct choice of what we consume. IT IS COMPULSORY. Those certificates are just guidelines. But somehow I feel it is better if food stalls display the halal certificates, even stalls that have Muslim employees because having Muslim employees do not guarantee the halalness of the eating place.
There are a lot examples that we can see from our surroundings. Muslims working in eating places that are not only don't have any halal certificates, but are also selling alcoholic drinks. And yet, many Muslims do not think twice buying from these places because having a Muslim worker is already enough an assurance. I feel bad...because it's been said that if there's a haram entity running through a Muslim body, his ibadah will be in vain. Of course, i'm not imposing on anyone. The question of one's ibadah, whether Allah will consider it or not is truly Allah's decision. I'm merely reminding myself and others too, we need to be responsible for whatever we consume. Stay away from the haram especially, and steer away from the syubhah.
But the question does not only constitutes the ingredients used in food and beverages. The income you use to buy food and drinks must also be from a halal source. Even if you buy halal items but with stolen money, the food itself will be haram to you, not because of its substance but because the money you used comes from a haram source. It's applicable also to food sellers. Because you work day till night attending your stall, you miss your solat.
Like I mentioned in my previous posts regarding solat, no matter in what condition you are, you are to perform your solat. Even when you forgot, the moment you remember, you must perform your solat. Which brings back to the question above. The food vendors miss their solat to attend to their stalls. What happened to the food? How is it classified? What happened to their income? Does it considered to come from a halal source? What about the customers?
I am standing at a crossroad, because this happens to someone who is very near to me. I desperately need the answers so as to calm my heart so. Wallahu a'lam
"Dan janganlah kamu campur adukkan yang hak dengan yang batil dan janganlah kamu sembunyikan yang hak itu, sedang kamu mengetahui." (Al-Baqarah ayat 42)
p/s: actually, writing personal blog during working time is also something which I am not supposed to do.. astaghfirullah~
p/p/s: i wrote regarding the meals prepared by a person who does not do his prayers are worse than a black dog's urine. here's the link to the story:
air tangan & makanan
p/p/s: i wrote regarding the meals prepared by a person who does not do his prayers are worse than a black dog's urine. here's the link to the story:
air tangan & makanan
break away
Bismillah
This time. I really took a drastic action. I left facebook even though it is dear to me. I left twitter too. I already sent the peace letter to him. And I shall leave the reply be until I am ready to face it.
I am sorry to all who found me a company and comfort. For not being able to be so for the time being. Because I need to find company and comfort of my own.
I also plan to hasten my coming back to Singapore. Things have been too suffocating here.
May Allah bless~
This time. I really took a drastic action. I left facebook even though it is dear to me. I left twitter too. I already sent the peace letter to him. And I shall leave the reply be until I am ready to face it.
I am sorry to all who found me a company and comfort. For not being able to be so for the time being. Because I need to find company and comfort of my own.
I also plan to hasten my coming back to Singapore. Things have been too suffocating here.
May Allah bless~
you've got mail
Bismillah
Tiba-tiba rasa macam nak mengarang surat. Surat berdamai antara aku dan dia. Penatlah asyik duduk fikir tentang perkara ni. Dah gunakan segala daya untuk berfikir positif atas tindakannya. Hari-hari dah macam pergi klinik psikologi sebab nak positifkan diri.
Banyak kemungkinan yang bermain dalam minda, kenapa ya dia membuat demikian. Kalau nak katakan dia nak menjauhkan diri daripada fitnah, aku tak nampak pula usahanya. Nampak bahagia sahaja. Nampak macam seseorang yang nak melangkah ke fasa baru dalam kehidupan.
Bukan aku tak bahagia kalau betullah tekaanku tu. Tapi sakit hati jugalah kalau dia 'putus hubungan' denganku tanpa ada apa-apa tanda, apa-apa berita, hanya kerana dia ada hubungan dengan orang lain. Aku tak marahlah nak reject aku depan-depan. Daripada buat macam ni, hari-hari boleh sakit jantung tau.
*tarik nafas dalam-dalam*
Okay, diya... kena bertenang.
Reset niat. Aku nak tulis surat sebab aku nak damai. Aku kena ambil langkah pertama. Selama ni aku asyik suruh orang je yang bertindak dahulu. Tak kisahlah dia nak berdamai ataupun tidak. Lagipun tak baik kan, sesama saudara seislam, seiman... bergaduh & tak bertegur sapa lebih dari 3 hari. (kami ni nak masuk sebulan dah)
Diya, yang penting kena readykan mental, apa pun jawapannya (ataupunlack of it).
Semoga Allah redha atas tindakanku ini. Amiin~
Tiba-tiba rasa macam nak mengarang surat. Surat berdamai antara aku dan dia. Penatlah asyik duduk fikir tentang perkara ni. Dah gunakan segala daya untuk berfikir positif atas tindakannya. Hari-hari dah macam pergi klinik psikologi sebab nak positifkan diri.
Banyak kemungkinan yang bermain dalam minda, kenapa ya dia membuat demikian. Kalau nak katakan dia nak menjauhkan diri daripada fitnah, aku tak nampak pula usahanya. Nampak bahagia sahaja. Nampak macam seseorang yang nak melangkah ke fasa baru dalam kehidupan.
Bukan aku tak bahagia kalau betullah tekaanku tu. Tapi sakit hati jugalah kalau dia 'putus hubungan' denganku tanpa ada apa-apa tanda, apa-apa berita, hanya kerana dia ada hubungan dengan orang lain. Aku tak marahlah nak reject aku depan-depan. Daripada buat macam ni, hari-hari boleh sakit jantung tau.
*tarik nafas dalam-dalam*
Okay, diya... kena bertenang.
Reset niat. Aku nak tulis surat sebab aku nak damai. Aku kena ambil langkah pertama. Selama ni aku asyik suruh orang je yang bertindak dahulu. Tak kisahlah dia nak berdamai ataupun tidak. Lagipun tak baik kan, sesama saudara seislam, seiman... bergaduh & tak bertegur sapa lebih dari 3 hari. (kami ni nak masuk sebulan dah)
Diya, yang penting kena readykan mental, apa pun jawapannya (ataupun
Semoga Allah redha atas tindakanku ini. Amiin~
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
signs & signals
Bismillah
Two posts before, i asked Him to show me the answer..
and just now, i received the sign..
Oh Allah..
How fair have you been to me,
But how little do i give my thanks to you...
Two posts before, i asked Him to show me the answer..
and just now, i received the sign..
Oh Allah..
How fair have you been to me,
But how little do i give my thanks to you...
the little signals you gave
meant nothing to me
because i trust Him more
Thank you Allah, thank you Allah, thank you Allah~
meant nothing to me
because i trust Him more
Thank you Allah, thank you Allah, thank you Allah~
kata-kata
Bismillah
Kata-kata kadangkala boleh disalahertikan. Terutamanya bila seorang penyampai itu tidak mendedahkan sepenuhnya apa yang hendak disampaikan.
Kisah kita dan awak:
Kita dah lama maafkan awak. Kita pun dah lama lupakan desakan hati kita untuk mengetahui sebabnya berlaku 'cooling-off period' antara awak dan kita. Jujurnya, memang kita tak boleh lupa perkara yang berlaku, bukan untuk berdendam, tapi biar ia menjadi memori pahit manis kita bersahabat. Dan kita sangat bersyukur kerana awak yang memulakan langkah pertama untuk menjernihkan suasana. Kerana kalau nak harapkan kita, mungkin kita dan awak akan lambat berbaik semula.
Kisah aku dan dia:
Aku dan dia juga sedang menjalani tempoh 'cooling-off' sepertimana yang berlaku antara awak dan kita. Aku sedang belajar untuk menempuhi tempoh ini dengan hati yang lapang. Dan aku juga sedang berusaha untuk kembali berbaik dengannya. Walaupun bukan menjadi suami seperti yang aku inginkan, cukuplah kita masih lagi bersahabat.
Mungkin kata-kataku telah membuat awak salah erti.
Kata-kata kadangkala boleh disalahertikan. Terutamanya bila seorang penyampai itu tidak mendedahkan sepenuhnya apa yang hendak disampaikan.
Kisah kita dan awak:
Kita dah lama maafkan awak. Kita pun dah lama lupakan desakan hati kita untuk mengetahui sebabnya berlaku 'cooling-off period' antara awak dan kita. Jujurnya, memang kita tak boleh lupa perkara yang berlaku, bukan untuk berdendam, tapi biar ia menjadi memori pahit manis kita bersahabat. Dan kita sangat bersyukur kerana awak yang memulakan langkah pertama untuk menjernihkan suasana. Kerana kalau nak harapkan kita, mungkin kita dan awak akan lambat berbaik semula.
Kisah aku dan dia:
Aku dan dia juga sedang menjalani tempoh 'cooling-off' sepertimana yang berlaku antara awak dan kita. Aku sedang belajar untuk menempuhi tempoh ini dengan hati yang lapang. Dan aku juga sedang berusaha untuk kembali berbaik dengannya. Walaupun bukan menjadi suami seperti yang aku inginkan, cukuplah kita masih lagi bersahabat.
Mungkin kata-kataku telah membuat awak salah erti.
Monday, February 6, 2012
perginya seorang murabbi
Bismillah
Hari ini telah pergi seorang lagi murabbi. Mudir sekolahku sewaktu aku di peringkat pra-universiti. Jujur ku akui, aku tidak mengenali sosok peribadi mudirku dengan baik, namun tidak dapat dinafikan perjuangan beliau dalam memartabatkan ilmu Islam di bumi Singapura.
Dunia sekarang kekontangan ulama'-ulama' seperti beliau, apatah lagi jika anak-anak didik di bidang pengajian Islam tidak meneruskan warisan ilmu Islam ini. Harapnya pemergian Allahyarham mudir dapat membangkitkan semangat anak-anak muda termasuk aku untuk meneruskan perjuangan beliau.
Sebait puisi daripada teman sesekolah buat Allahyarham:
Ribuan langkah kau tapaki
Pelusuk negeri kau sambangi
Tanpa kenal lelah jemu
Sampaikan firman Tuhanmu
Terik matahari
Tak surutkan langkahmu
Deru hujan badai
Tak lunturkan azzammu
Raga kan terluka
Tak jerikan nyalimu
Fatamorgana dunia
Tak silaukan pandangmu
Semua makhluk bertasbih
Panjatkan ampun bagimu
Semua makhluk berdoa
Limpahkan rahmat atasmu
Perginya seorang murabbi, moga Allah tempatkan beliau dalam golongan hambaNya yang soleh.
....dan akan kami sambung perjuanganmu...
اللهم اغفرله وارحمه وعافه واعف عنه...
amiin, amiin, amiin ya rabbal 'alamin
Hari ini telah pergi seorang lagi murabbi. Mudir sekolahku sewaktu aku di peringkat pra-universiti. Jujur ku akui, aku tidak mengenali sosok peribadi mudirku dengan baik, namun tidak dapat dinafikan perjuangan beliau dalam memartabatkan ilmu Islam di bumi Singapura.
Dunia sekarang kekontangan ulama'-ulama' seperti beliau, apatah lagi jika anak-anak didik di bidang pengajian Islam tidak meneruskan warisan ilmu Islam ini. Harapnya pemergian Allahyarham mudir dapat membangkitkan semangat anak-anak muda termasuk aku untuk meneruskan perjuangan beliau.
Sebait puisi daripada teman sesekolah buat Allahyarham:
Ribuan langkah kau tapaki
Pelusuk negeri kau sambangi
Tanpa kenal lelah jemu
Sampaikan firman Tuhanmu
Terik matahari
Tak surutkan langkahmu
Deru hujan badai
Tak lunturkan azzammu
Raga kan terluka
Tak jerikan nyalimu
Fatamorgana dunia
Tak silaukan pandangmu
Semua makhluk bertasbih
Panjatkan ampun bagimu
Semua makhluk berdoa
Limpahkan rahmat atasmu
Perginya seorang murabbi, moga Allah tempatkan beliau dalam golongan hambaNya yang soleh.
....dan akan kami sambung perjuanganmu...
اللهم اغفرله وارحمه وعافه واعف عنه...
amiin, amiin, amiin ya rabbal 'alamin
hadapi dengan senyuman
Bismillah
Bulan Januari yang lepas merupakan bulan yang aku rasa sangat teruji. Dan ujian yang paling hebat ialah apabila seorang teman memutuskan hubungannya denganku. Apa sebabnya, apa motifnya... tidak ku ketahui. Sehingga kini masih lagi teka-teki. Bukan pertama kali aku dibuat begini. Tapi penangan kali ini terasa hebat. Mungkin kerana teman ini ku sudah anggap lebih dari seorang teman. Mungkin kerana separuh hatiku telah ku serahkan kepadanya.
Hidup terasa suram & kelam tanpa kehadirannya. Seolah-olah dialah cahaya, seakan dialah tujuh warna pelangi yang menceriakan suasana. Semangatku juga jatuh lumpuh kerana dia tiada.
Alhamdulillah, di kala kesedihan & kemurunganku memanjang, Allah masih mengurniakanku iman di dalam hati. Agar aku tidak bertindak melulu, melayan rawan di hati. Janji-janjiNya sentiasa terngiang-ngiang di cuping telinga, sentiasa terpampang di depan mata, agar aku tidak lupa. Sekali lagi, Alhamdulillah~
Walaupun hati ini menangis, demi teman-teman lain, ku gagahi jua dengan senyuman :)
Bulan Januari yang lepas merupakan bulan yang aku rasa sangat teruji. Dan ujian yang paling hebat ialah apabila seorang teman memutuskan hubungannya denganku. Apa sebabnya, apa motifnya... tidak ku ketahui. Sehingga kini masih lagi teka-teki. Bukan pertama kali aku dibuat begini. Tapi penangan kali ini terasa hebat. Mungkin kerana teman ini ku sudah anggap lebih dari seorang teman. Mungkin kerana separuh hatiku telah ku serahkan kepadanya.
Hidup terasa suram & kelam tanpa kehadirannya. Seolah-olah dialah cahaya, seakan dialah tujuh warna pelangi yang menceriakan suasana. Semangatku juga jatuh lumpuh kerana dia tiada.
Alhamdulillah, di kala kesedihan & kemurunganku memanjang, Allah masih mengurniakanku iman di dalam hati. Agar aku tidak bertindak melulu, melayan rawan di hati. Janji-janjiNya sentiasa terngiang-ngiang di cuping telinga, sentiasa terpampang di depan mata, agar aku tidak lupa. Sekali lagi, Alhamdulillah~
Walaupun hati ini menangis, demi teman-teman lain, ku gagahi jua dengan senyuman :)
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