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  • Allah & His Messenger
  • my family
  • mereka yang menyayangi saya :))
  • babies and toddlers
  • my course
  • my late cat :(

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

kuasa minda


I just realised how strong my mental powers can be. No, I do not mean I have special abilities concerning the mind. My mind is as normal as a normal person is, thank you. It's just that I feel my mind has a lot of strength actually.

Sometimes, during our dire times, we bring out the best in ourselves. And that's what I discovered about myself. Whenever i'm sick, I would refuse to take any medicine because (1) i hate medicine and (2) i don't trust medicine and doctors.

However, since living away from my mother, and under the care of watchful roommates' eyes, being sick means eating medicine at all cost. And no matter how much I protest, I won't get my way. So after a while, eating medicine is no longer a thing to be forced. (but that doesn't mean it's a thing I would gladly do)

So it's like mind over matter really. My mind has this force of making me get over the two reasons for not eating medicine, and get me to take it. (get it?)

I'm truly fascinated how mind works really. And the more and more I discovered what my mind can do, the more interested i've become. And the more thankful I am with this beautiful gift. Alhamdulillah. :D

Sunday, July 26, 2009

keindahan di alam universiti

Jika ditanya...
Nikmat apa yang bisa didapati di alam universiti?
Inilah jawapanku

Kerna di sini
Ku mengenaliMu

Kerna di sini
KewujudanMu semakin terasa

Kerna di sini
Ku dipertemukan dengan insan-insan terpilih

Kerna di sini
Aku diberi rasa titisan ilmuMu

Kerna di sini
Aku ingin menjadi lebih baik dari semalam

Itulah nikmat yang ingin ku miliki

garden of knowledge


Alhamdulillah, syukur rasanye dapat menjejakkan kaki ke universiti. Tempat yang tidak pernah lekang dengan ilmu. Tempat yang mana orang berkumpul, mengejar ilmu. Tempat yang sering dijadikan tempat majlis-majlis ilmu. Rasanya kehidupan sebagai seorang pelajar banyak faedah dan manfaatnya, terutama sekali kalau nak dapatkan maklumat tentang majlis-majlis ilmu. Nikmat betul...

Allah nak permudahkan perjalanan hamba-hambaNya yang nak tuntut ilmu. Digerakkan hati para penganjur adakan majlis ilmu dalam universiti. Dipermudahkan perjalanan para pendakwah yang datang dari luar negara. Dilembutkan hati hamba-hambaNya untuk meraikan majlis-majlis ilmu.

Banyak pengajaran dan pelajaran yang dapat diraih dari setiap majlis yang diikuti. Dan semakin jelas matlamat kehidupan seorang hamba yang bergelar muslim. Moga-moga setiap yang disampaikan terpahat dalam hati, bukan hanya sekadar masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri.

Tapi hambaMu ini masih lemah ya Allah. Sesungguhnya diri ini masih lagi kerdil dengan ilmu yang diperolehi. Kuatkanlah dan cekalkanlah hati hambaMu ini ya Allah. Amiin.

inginnya apa?

Bila berhadapan, sebelah mata tidak dipandang
Di belakang, kata-kata manis terbit pula
Apa inginnya dia?

Thursday, July 23, 2009

it's that dream again


It's that dream again. After a long while, it came back. And why does it have to be that way? Whenever it was that dream, it was the same smile, the same assurance I get. But reality proves otherwise. Yet, after each dream, I never stop hoping.

Why does it have to be this way? It's been four years already. Enough is enough.

Or is it a sign from Him? Is Allah paving the way, giving a chance to start all over again?

You know me best
You arrange my life not to my wants, but to my needs...
I stand by you

Wallahu 'ala wa 'alam

Sunday, July 19, 2009

unsure in certainty


Alhamdulillah. New semester started off well, even though there were a few glitches. After tonight, things will stable until the last week of study. InsyaAllah, this year is no more playing ground for us. 3rd year is a crucial year, especially for those who will be graduating.

The more older I get, somehow the more unsure I felt what I really want in this life. And I have this phobia of giving out my opinions. Every time they ask me about anything, I will avoid giving answers. Because I am afraid my answers won't be from my heart, and I won't be able to carry out what i've said.

I have found some kind of a support group (or more commonly known as usrah), but it's quite new and i'm shy with the sisters. I hope over time, we can share more. I have a lot of things in my mind, but I would rather keep mum because i'm afraid people might have perceptions over them.

I would like to write more, but it quite hard to put it into words.

Wallahu 'ala wa 'alam