mudahnya di zaman kanak-kanak

Bismillah

Minggu lepas, saya telah menghabiskan masa membaca sebuah novel yang berkisar dua orang sahabat yang juga merupakan adik-beradik susuan. Novel itu membawa pembaca ke zaman kanak-kanak mereka pada awalnya. Bagaimana mereka menghabiskan masa mereka bermain dan bersuka ria bersama.

Sudah lama saya meninggalkan aktiviti membaca. Semasa di awal zaman universiti, dapatlah juga saya menghabiskan dua, tiga novel dalam satu semester. Tapi sejak akhir-akhir ini, bahan-bahan akademik yang perlu dibaca telah take over masa untuk membaca novel. Walau apapun, membaca adalah amalan mulia. :)

Beberapa hari yang lalu, saya juga telah menonton sebuah filem mengenai kanak-kanak yang tidak mahu menjadi dewasa. Siapa tahu nama filem ini? Ya.. Peter Pan (tanya sendiri, jawab sendiri..heh!) Peter tidak mahu dibebani dengan tanggungjawab orang dewasa, lalu dia melarikan diri ke Never Land, sebuah pulau yang membolehkan seseorang kekal menjadi kanak-kanak.

Mungkin ramai orang dewasa yang ingin kembali ke zaman kanak-kanak. Ini kerana pada zaman ini, kita belum lagi dibebani dengan pelbagai tanggungjawab. Zaman yang mana satu-satunya masalah yang kita hadapi ialah bagaimana untuk tidak bosan dan apakah permainan pada hari ini.

Saya juga~

Kadang-kadang, bila terasa penat bermain dengan 'permainan' dunia, mahu sahaja saya putarkan semula masa untuk kembali ke zaman kanak-kanak.

kali ini, biar Allah...

Bismillah

Kadangkala saya rasa, kita kena rewind kehidupan kita. Bukan untuk terkenang-kenang kisah lama, tapi untuk mengambil ibrah dan pengajaran daripada kesilapan kita yang lalu.

Dulu saya terlalu mengikut kehendak hati. Tidak betah berdiam diri lagi. Lalu saya menyerah diri. Menzahirkan perasaan yang terpendam selama ini. Dengan harapan dia menerima. Untuk melakar angan-angan bersama. Tapi apa yang berlaku adalah sebaliknya.

Kini, sekali lagi...

Tapi kali ini, saya serahkan pada Allah sepenuhnya.

Rasa tidak mampu untuk menghadapi situasi seperti itu sekali lagi.

Kena yakin dengan seyakin-yakinnya terhadap janji Allah, sebab Allah tak akan pernah memungkiri janji.

sell-fish

Bismillah

It's been bugging my mind for quite a while now. It seems that many people spend so much time in front of the screen that they forgot to interact with real live people well. I'm also guilty of that. Huhu~

The other day, when my family and I were on the bus to go back home from the airport, we saw a man who can't even put down or pause what he was watching on his tablet while boarding the bus. This type of act might hinder other people who want to board the bus too.

It seems that technology has downgraded people to be a less gracious community. People are oblivious to another's plight in their surroundings. They are more drawn to screens.

I know, I complained too much about other people, but in actuality (ceh, nak jugak guna perkataan bombastic!) I am intending it to myself.

ayah

Bismillah

Kadang-kala, bila saya sedang bersujud, saya teringatkan ayah di alam sana. Apa khabar ayah? Sudah lama ayah tidak menjenguk saya di alam mimpi. Kali terakhir ayah datang ketika saya menerima keputusan peringkat A. Itu lima tahun yang lalu.

Tapi ibu sering mimpi akan ayah. Mungkin sebab ibu selalu ingatkan ayah, ibu selalu doakan ayah. Anaknya jarang-jarang teringatkannya. Doakan ayah pun bukan di setiap akhir solat. :(

Apa khabar ayah di sana ya?

Bila saya terfikir akan keadaan ayah, saya jadi peka dengan perbuatan saya. Sebab saya tak mahu, kerana perbuatan anaknya, ayah diseksa di alam kubur. Apatah lagi saya anak perempuannya. Ayah bertanggungjawab ke atas anak perempuannya. Saya tidak mahu perbuatan saya mengundang kecelakaan ke atas ayah. :(

Saya rindu ayah. Saya rindu nak panggil ayah.

T_T

the eyes can't lie what the heart wants to keep hidden~

Bismillah

So I failed to keep a promise to myself to experience love after marriage. Okay, it's not like I'm falling head over hills now but it seems that I am constantly approaching the danger zone. And the other party is not helping me much to stay away from there.

We were sitting in a car & talking while listening to the radio when the subject discussed by the deejays turn to marriage. A friend also shared the story about a boy who was asked into marriage by a girl. Then she asked a male friend in the company about what would he do if a girl asks for his hand.

Which happens to be a male friend who is someone I am quite comfortable with. (Any correlation?)

My heart tries as much to deny, but the eyes surely can't lie the feelings that's blossoming.

Ottokae~

Insyirah Bakes, Datin Cooks

Bismillah

I was in the washroom just now when suddenly this idea came up. It seems that I do a lot of thinking in the washroom. :)

Since I plan to stay in Singapore for quite some time starting next month, I figured I should do something worthwhile with my time there. And since I love baking and also Ramadhan is coming, I thought I might make myself and my time useful by baking. I received good responses so far for most of what I baked, so I think it's time to venture out.

I already thought of the organizational structure (talk about being a management student!):

My mother will be the CEO.

My sister is the CPO (Chief Production Officer)

Muhammad will be the CMO (Chief Marketing Officer)

Abdul Kadir will be QC officer (Quality Control)

And I will be the CFO (Chief Finance Officer)

I have also thought of the activities and the services we are going to offer.

I wanted to do a pre-Ramadhan bake sale, so that people will have the chance to taste and if they like it (and I hope they do!!) they will order it for Raya celebration. I also thought of registering the business with my father's name. And our line of products would be baked delicacies & cooked food (that's why the name is Insyirah - me - bakes and Datin - my mother - cooks!)

Okay, this sounds like it's just a dream. But I really do want to make it happen. Jinjja!!~~

Now that I have prepared my business proposal, I shall go back to make the proposal for my study.

neither a tear nor a drop of blood

Bismillah

Two days before, the person who I adored so much has taken a step further down the road of life. Without me of course.

The hurt that I've felt for the past few months disappeared just like that the moment I heard the news. No tears and no blood 'shed' from the heart.

Alhamdulillah, Allah has helped me to grow stronger over the pains love has caused me. :)

al-hayaa'

Bismillah

Sebentar tadi saya telah google sepotong ayat al-Quran untuk disertakan dalam gambar yang diupload dalam fb. Link yang diberi membawa saya ke suatu laman blog seseorang. Serangkap tulisannya telah membuatku jadi malu.

Allah Maha Pemalu.

Allah sangat malu jika Dia tidak memperkenankan doa-doa hambaNya. Apatah lagi doa-doa itu datangnya daripada hamba-hambaNya yang soleh solehah.

Pabila menyentuh hal malu, saya teringat janji saya kepada diri sendiri:

Al-hayaa' menjadi jati diri.

Semoga Allah sentiasa mengurniakanku sifat malu ini. Amiin~