Bismillah
I've been wanting to post about my sister for a very looonngggg while.
I've been observing my sister every time we go out. She has this good habit of picking up trash, no matter where it was, and throw it away in a bin. But an empty bottle on the pathway couldn't do harm to anybody, right? And anyway, that empty bottle is dirty. Personally, I wouldn't want to touch anything dirty on the pathway when I'm oh so clean and tidy.
It is a small act in a human's eyes, but Allah sees it as a great act of kindness.
Another good habit of hers is to greet vendors at the market cheerfully. We all have the usual shops that we like to go to. We have seen them time and again, so why do we need to greet them like we have not seen them for long? But she doesn't care if people look at her strangely when she does that (even I feel weird)
So with the observation I made, I'll try to emulate her.
:)
pathway
Berjalan Mencari Makna dalam Hidup
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
ikhlas?
Bismillah
Tomorrow I'm going for an interview at Hanis Montessori. I pray to Allah, may He ease my path towards becoming part of the teaching staff there, amiin~
For the past few months, I kept seeing my path directing me to the teaching field. I was asked to help my nieces with their Quran recitation, and then a friend came up and asked for volunteers to tutor students with sicknesses that make them miss school many times, and I went for an interview for a teaching position at PCF kindergartens (though I've already turn down the offer unofficially), and now this interview came along..
However, a point brought up by a friend makes me think. The mother of the student I'll be tutoring asked me to help out her daughter with her recitation too. My friend told me that I was lucky to have the opportunity to teach Quran recitation.. pahala berterusan as long as what I taught is being practiced.
I reflected upon myself... have I been sincere, Lillahi Ta'ala, when I teach? Or do I work only for worldly gains?
Will I stand in front of Allah, saying I've been teaching for the sake of Him, only to have those empty words thrown back at me?
:'(
Tomorrow I'm going for an interview at Hanis Montessori. I pray to Allah, may He ease my path towards becoming part of the teaching staff there, amiin~
For the past few months, I kept seeing my path directing me to the teaching field. I was asked to help my nieces with their Quran recitation, and then a friend came up and asked for volunteers to tutor students with sicknesses that make them miss school many times, and I went for an interview for a teaching position at PCF kindergartens (though I've already turn down the offer unofficially), and now this interview came along..
However, a point brought up by a friend makes me think. The mother of the student I'll be tutoring asked me to help out her daughter with her recitation too. My friend told me that I was lucky to have the opportunity to teach Quran recitation.. pahala berterusan as long as what I taught is being practiced.
I reflected upon myself... have I been sincere, Lillahi Ta'ala, when I teach? Or do I work only for worldly gains?
Will I stand in front of Allah, saying I've been teaching for the sake of Him, only to have those empty words thrown back at me?
:'(
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
tak sabar nak kembali ke sekolah
Bismillah
Aaarrgghh... dua bulan sebelum ini, terasa berkobar-kobar nak mulakan sekolah semula. Bila duduk berbincang dengan pensyarah, masyaAllah, otak yang dah kempis nie terasa kembang semula. Input-input yang bernas buat diri terasa tak sabar nak menaip dan menulis.
Tapi... bila jauh dari pandangan, semangat pun dah jadi pudar. Apa yang dah dibincangkan semua seolah-olah dah jadi kenangan. Seakan masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan (saja terbalikkan sebab nak rhyme).
Sekarang dah kena siapkan surat minta maaf campur air mata. Tak dapatlah den nak sambung belajar di UM buat masa nie. InsyaAllah satu hari den kembali lagi. Buat masa nie, ambil udara baru pula. Suasana baru. Teman-teman baru. Pensyarah-pensyarah baru. InsyaAllah, jika tiada halangan, esok nak daftar di INCEIF. Moga dipermudahkan urusan. Moga Allah redha.
:)
Aaarrgghh... dua bulan sebelum ini, terasa berkobar-kobar nak mulakan sekolah semula. Bila duduk berbincang dengan pensyarah, masyaAllah, otak yang dah kempis nie terasa kembang semula. Input-input yang bernas buat diri terasa tak sabar nak menaip dan menulis.
Tapi... bila jauh dari pandangan, semangat pun dah jadi pudar. Apa yang dah dibincangkan semua seolah-olah dah jadi kenangan. Seakan masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan (saja terbalikkan sebab nak rhyme).
Sekarang dah kena siapkan surat minta maaf campur air mata. Tak dapatlah den nak sambung belajar di UM buat masa nie. InsyaAllah satu hari den kembali lagi. Buat masa nie, ambil udara baru pula. Suasana baru. Teman-teman baru. Pensyarah-pensyarah baru. InsyaAllah, jika tiada halangan, esok nak daftar di INCEIF. Moga dipermudahkan urusan. Moga Allah redha.
:)
and the time just flies..
Bismillah
Since my last update, alhamdulillah, my sister is already safely engaged. Now, we are busy making preparations for September event. There were a lot of heated discussions, even before the engagement, between my sister & I and our mother. My sister wanted a simple engagement and wedding (and I agreed) but my mother kept asking to consider our BIG family. Simple just couldn't be done. And anyway, since it's a first wedding for the family, everybody wanted it to be a HUGE success.
We both wanted just what pertains in Sunnah, but culture caused a hindrance to it.
When it's my turn, I hope my mother and relatives will be much more understanding to accept what I want for my event.
p/s: ukhti soghirah, this is for you :))
Since my last update, alhamdulillah, my sister is already safely engaged. Now, we are busy making preparations for September event. There were a lot of heated discussions, even before the engagement, between my sister & I and our mother. My sister wanted a simple engagement and wedding (and I agreed) but my mother kept asking to consider our BIG family. Simple just couldn't be done. And anyway, since it's a first wedding for the family, everybody wanted it to be a HUGE success.
We both wanted just what pertains in Sunnah, but culture caused a hindrance to it.
When it's my turn, I hope my mother and relatives will be much more understanding to accept what I want for my event.
p/s: ukhti soghirah, this is for you :))
Sunday, February 17, 2013
the other side of him
Bismillah
In welcoming the in-laws-to-be, my mother decided to do a spring cleaning. I came across a few diaries and note books my father used to write in his notes from his weekly gathering.
My heart ached as I keep on reading, even though I was laughing outside.
How meticulous was he.
He was consistent in updating his daily activities, even if it was only to write, "MC 2 hari, duduk rumah sahaja".
He made a table of his earnings, how much he had earn and how much he had spent for the day. How much money he was giving my mother, his mother, his children, money he put aside for savings etc.
How he copied nicely the lectures given by his teacher at the weekly gathering.
How he wrote a letter to himself, reminding him of the world and the hereafter.
How he was a good person and the best father a child could ask for.
I was feeling a bit disheartened when I thought that he had gone away so soon. We, his children, had no chance on learning to be the good person he is. We had no chance of growing up with his teachings.
How I miss my father so, so much :'(
May Allah grant him Jannah and place him among the anbiya', syuhada', solihin. Amiin~
In welcoming the in-laws-to-be, my mother decided to do a spring cleaning. I came across a few diaries and note books my father used to write in his notes from his weekly gathering.
My heart ached as I keep on reading, even though I was laughing outside.
How meticulous was he.
He was consistent in updating his daily activities, even if it was only to write, "MC 2 hari, duduk rumah sahaja".
He made a table of his earnings, how much he had earn and how much he had spent for the day. How much money he was giving my mother, his mother, his children, money he put aside for savings etc.
How he copied nicely the lectures given by his teacher at the weekly gathering.
How he wrote a letter to himself, reminding him of the world and the hereafter.
How he was a good person and the best father a child could ask for.
I was feeling a bit disheartened when I thought that he had gone away so soon. We, his children, had no chance on learning to be the good person he is. We had no chance of growing up with his teachings.
How I miss my father so, so much :'(
May Allah grant him Jannah and place him among the anbiya', syuhada', solihin. Amiin~
welcome!
Bismillah
I think 2013 is going to be an exciting year for the family... because we might be welcoming a new member in our family. Yeay!~ (I know, I don't sound quite sincere)
My mother is SUPER excited. She keeps on mentioning what she has to do.. meeting in-laws-to-be, spring cleaning the house, window-shopping wedding items. It's good to see her being excited. The family has become stagnant for quite a while (I mean, there has been no major events for quite some time), so having a new family member sure add some spice in our lives.
My sister seems quite excited too. She used to be one who will shy away from the topic of marriages and the like (I'm usually the overly-excited one) but now she seems to be more open to discuss about this. And i'm jealous!
Well, I'm actually happy to see my mother up and about being excited. She definitely deserves some happiness, and none could make her happier than to see her children being happy (A wedding IS a happy event, right?)
:)
I think 2013 is going to be an exciting year for the family... because we might be welcoming a new member in our family. Yeay!~ (I know, I don't sound quite sincere)
My mother is SUPER excited. She keeps on mentioning what she has to do.. meeting in-laws-to-be, spring cleaning the house, window-shopping wedding items. It's good to see her being excited. The family has become stagnant for quite a while (I mean, there has been no major events for quite some time), so having a new family member sure add some spice in our lives.
My sister seems quite excited too. She used to be one who will shy away from the topic of marriages and the like (I'm usually the overly-excited one) but now she seems to be more open to discuss about this. And i'm jealous!
Well, I'm actually happy to see my mother up and about being excited. She definitely deserves some happiness, and none could make her happier than to see her children being happy (A wedding IS a happy event, right?)
:)
Saturday, February 2, 2013
2013
Bismillah
Long overdue post for 2013 I think.
2012 had left me in a bad state of confusion that I didn't even look forward to a new year.
I am now taking baby steps, again, towards being a better me.
May Allah bless.
Long overdue post for 2013 I think.
2012 had left me in a bad state of confusion that I didn't even look forward to a new year.
I am now taking baby steps, again, towards being a better me.
May Allah bless.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
a whole new dimension
Bismillah
I have heard and read about this a lot of time but yesterday, the realization hit me hard. Suddenly, I'm thinking about this in a whole new dimension.
I know that when a girl got married, the responsibilities shifted from her parents to her husband. She must obey her husband first after Allah. Jannah will be waiting for her. Parents come second. Whatever her husband wishes for her, as long as it is not against the shariah, she must comply to it. This does not pose a problem for me. I've been a good daughter for as long as I live (ehem.. most of the time).
The thing is, I might get married to someone who is not from my hometown (macam ye ye je) and my in-laws would be less thrilled to leave the place where they have toiled years and years.
Okay, I still have no problem with that.
The problem is I don't want to live apart from my mother. My mother too would be less thrilled to leave Singapore as my father was buried here. My mother wanted to have the same final resting place as my father.
Woah! Suddenly, this become too hard a question for me to think about. Well, actually, I don't need to think about this anytime soon. I'm sure things will go with the flow when the time comes.
I have heard and read about this a lot of time but yesterday, the realization hit me hard. Suddenly, I'm thinking about this in a whole new dimension.
I know that when a girl got married, the responsibilities shifted from her parents to her husband. She must obey her husband first after Allah. Jannah will be waiting for her. Parents come second. Whatever her husband wishes for her, as long as it is not against the shariah, she must comply to it. This does not pose a problem for me. I've been a good daughter for as long as I live (ehem.. most of the time).
The thing is, I might get married to someone who is not from my hometown (macam ye ye je) and my in-laws would be less thrilled to leave the place where they have toiled years and years.
Okay, I still have no problem with that.
The problem is I don't want to live apart from my mother. My mother too would be less thrilled to leave Singapore as my father was buried here. My mother wanted to have the same final resting place as my father.
Woah! Suddenly, this become too hard a question for me to think about. Well, actually, I don't need to think about this anytime soon. I'm sure things will go with the flow when the time comes.
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