Bismillah
Last week, my brother had a heart to heart talk with my mother. It seemed that as he will be finishing his O Levels in a few days (by the way, he already had his last paper yesterday), he had given thoughts to what he will be doing while waiting for the results.
A couple of years back, my brother had shown interest in music. I was against it at first, but I relented a bit by making him promise that it won't disrupt his studies and he won't neglect his ibadah. I don't know if my approval was correct or it has let my brother to has thoughts of pursuing music seriously.
That aside... my mother was adamant not to let him pursue music. And that made him burst to tears.
He cried, telling my mother that he really wanted to meet ayah. He really wanted to know about ayah, his personalities, his likes. When my mother related this to me, my heart broke and tears sprung to my eyes.
All this while, I've been lamenting how little the time I got to spend with my father. But I forgot that my brother NEVER EVEN got a chance to recognize my father. I think the only time he set his eyes on ayah was up to 3 months old.
I should count my blessings. At least, I get to meet ayah till I was 10 years old.
2 comments:
ukhti,
when i read this post, i remembered one of my students.
Kesianlah..
Kalau awk tengok muka dia, nampak tau, dia orangnya sangat garang. lepas tu, tengok perangai dia, nampak lagi, dalam diri dia, simpan kemarahan. Dia pernah pecahkan meja sekolah, suka ugut kawan, cara dia menunjukkan kemarahan dalam diri dia. Pada siapa, kenapa, itu kita tak pasti.
Daripada perbualan kita dan cikgu noraini dengan dia, dah beberapa kali jugala, bukan sekali, kita dapat tahu, abahnya, cakap kasarnya, kaki perempuan. Kesiankan..Dia tak cakap terus terang, tapi kita dan cikgu noraini dapat baca..
Terlintas dalam fikiran kita (boleh jadi betul, boleh jadi tidak) maksiat2 yg abah dia buat depan dia yg tak sepatutnya dia tahu jadikan banyak konflik timbul dalam diri dia.
Kesiankan dhiya..
Tapikan, bila kita baca lagikan, sebenarnyakan, jiwa dia lembut tau. hehe.. ada beberapa perkara yang berlaku yg kita dpt simpulkan yg dia sebenarnya ada sifat halim..
Nama dia pun Helmi..:)
Ada masa, kita ceritakan lagi tntg Helmi ni kenapa kita cakap jiwa dia lembut. hehe..
Dia kurang agama, tapi bila dia tengok perkara yang berkaitan dgn agama, dia ada minat.
Satu kali tu, kita nak minum air, kita baca bismillah secara senyap, kita togok botol, sambil tengok kanan, ternampak Helmi, dia senyum kat kita, dia cakap, dgn penuh hormat "bismillah cikgu", hehe, lepas tu kita, senyum n angguk.(kita dapat tahuorg yg main2kan dan org yg tak main2kan, dan helmi ketika tu, dia lebih kepada rasa inspired melalui perbuatan kita, itu pun dgn izin Allah),
Helmi helmi..Moga Allah yang Maha Penyantun membukakan jalan2 kebaikan buat kita semua dan Helmi khususnya..
Amin Allahumma Amin..
Fa
:)
suka baca kisah2 awak & anak-anak murid awak...
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