i'm in a relationship

Bismillah

Semakin ramai teman menukar status mereka kepada "in a relationship". Kalau mengikut jiwa mudaku, aku juga menginginkan begitu. Siapa yang tidak mahu sayang menyayangi kan? Itukan fitrah... Tapi ada kuasa yang menarik aku pergi daripada jalan itu. Biarpun jalan itu menarik, jalan itu penuh keseronokan...jalan itu hanya sementara, sedangkan aku mencari suatu yang pasti.

Walaupun mungkin ku telah terjumpa dengan si dia, tapi selagi dia belum mengucapkan sebarang kepastian, maka aku juga akan menahan diri dari membuat pengakuan. Biar kita suka dalam diam, asalkan masing-masing menjaga diri, menjaga maruah, menjaga iman.

Dan sementara itu, biarlah aku perbaiki "relationship" ku bersama Tuhan.

Wallahu 'ala wa 'alam

selamat ulang tahun ayah~

Bismillah

Jika ayah masih di sini
Hari ini pasti disambut meriah
Kerana hari ini ulang tahun ayah

Pantas masa berlalu
Yang pergi takkan kembali
Yang hidup pasti mati

Ayah
Walaupun ayah tiada di depan mata
Di hati jua ayah bersemadi
Memori indah akan sentiasa diingati
Kasih ayah tetap dirindui

Hanya doa penghubung kita
Moga berjumpa kelak di syurga
Amiin~

:'))

rahsia

Bismillah

Ku ingin ucap kata maaf
Bukan aku ingin berahsia
Tapi keadaan tidak pernah mengizinkan
Dan aku tidak mahu perhatian
Apatah lagi simpati teman
Bagiku ia adalah suatu kejadian
Yang pasti
Aku sedih, ya
Aku masih lagi mengingatinya
Tapi aku tidak boleh terus-terusan membungkam rasa
Aku tahu aku lemah
Mengenangkannya saja
Air mataku bergenang sudah
Oleh itu aku pilih
Pilih jalan untuk tidak berkata
Mungkin ini bukan jalan yang tepat
Dan mungkin ia lebih menyusahkan
Oleh itu sebelum yang benar diketahui
Aku mohon maaf
Kerana menyimpan kebenaran selama ini
Moga persahabatan kan tetap kekal abadi
Kerana aku sayangkan hubungan ini

Wallahu 'ala wa 'alam

the brighter side of life~

Bismillah

I woke up early today, excited over all I get to do before the clock strikes midnight. I have responsibilities to fulfill today. I am important. My job is to choose what kind of day I am going to have.

Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.

Today I can feel sad that I don't have more money or I can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste.

Today I can grumble about my health or I can rejoice that I am alive.

Today I can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when I was growing up or I can feel grateful that they took great care of me since the day I was born.

Today I can cry because roses have thorns or I can celebrate that thorns have roses.

Today I can mourn my lack of friends or I can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationships.

Today I can whine because I have to go to work or I can shout for joy because I have a job to do.

Today I can complain because I have to go to school or eagerly open my mind and fill it with rich new tidbits of knowledge.

Today I can murmur dejectedly because I have to do housework or I can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter for my mind, body and soul.

It's how we want to look at life, be it positive or negative, that will influence our perception about life. Think positive and insyaAllah you'll get positive outlook on everything you see.

Wallahu 'ala wa 'alam

credits: Bro Sharil Iswan

Bismillah

Rasa diri macam penipu. Tipu diri sendiri, tipu pada Allah. Astaghfirullah. Mulut memang senang nak menyusun kata, tapi hati mereka lain cerita.

Kata berserah
Ikhlas
Redha
Terima seadanya

Tapi bila tak berbalas...

Jadi sedih
Marah
Geram

Astaghfirullah... macam mana nak perbaiki hati ini? Hati yang banyak menyembunyikan rahsia. Hati yang banyak menipu.

*Tak mahu ingat lagi. Tak mahu fikirkan lagi. Tak mahu melihat lagi*

Ya Allah
Tuntunlah diriku
Jangan Kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Jangan pernah berpaling dari diriku...

*malu pada diri. malu pada Allah*

:'((

Bismillah

Dosa dan maksiat itu
sama ada zahir mahupun batin
adalah ibarat dinding
yang menghalang sinar Allah s.w.t

Apabila telah terangkatnya dinding itu
barulah sinar dapat menembusi

Hati yang suci dan bersih
hasil daripada latihan mujahadah
yg istiqaamah

Semoga Allah s.w.t menjauhkan kita semua daripada dosa, maksiat bala & fitnah.. Amiin

*credits: Najihah Dz

protected

Bismillah

Missing my mum, hence this post came about.

Over the holidays, I noticed that my whereabouts (and the time) were constantly being monitored. I felt that somehow i'm much more protected than I used to be when I was a teenager. Not that it's not a good thing. It's really great of my mum to take care of me to such lengths. But as usual the other side of me remains defiant.

I think my mum needs to feel secure that her daughters are well taken care of. My sister is far away in a distant country, and I rarely go back except for holidays, so when i'm home, she really uses the opportunity to exercise motherly actions (read: affection) over me.

I'm really glad that I was brought up to be a lady. Allah s.w.t has helped my mother to cope through the rough times when my father wasn't here. I know it's hard for a single parent to bring up her children without a father figure in their lives, but my mother has managed to pull through the trials she had to put up with, with Allah's s.w.t help, alhamdulillah.

So I don't really mind (most of the time) to be protected even though i'm legally an adult right now.

:)