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بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

since i couldn't get through multiply, i will post my updates here...

i'm so happy that my laptop has been fixed..at least i can get a few entertainment...

the internet connection is on/off good..i thought of doing movie marathon like i did at home, but the loading time is too long, and i end up watching half of this movie, and half of that...quite a bummer, but in any case, we didn't have too long a break, so watching a full movie is no can-do...

haz and i thought that it was going to be an intensive kind of course, but actually we get frequent breaks (frequent but little time)...and we were being left alone most of the time ( no coordinators to watch over us), so we make use of the time to slack around much...

tomorrow we'll be going to taiping...i'm really looking forward to it coz i've never been to that part of msia yet..we get to go to the zoo/night safari, and we get to shop...yay!!!

and after that we'll have a holiday...and i can go back to spore...i still have a few things left that i need to bring here, so a holiday is a good option...

alhamdulillah, i have another balai islam friend at this coming MHS (minggu haluansiswa)...i don't know how kak aisyah managed to be a PM, but i really really appreciate her being there...

so far, all is well...we are being taken care of well...they provide nice food...so we don't use much money, except for drinks...

my worries that the previous PMs will treat us differently have been erased...they are all very friendly, except for a few of them...maybe when we have gone through more together, then we will bond..i hope so..this year's PMs are lesser than previous year, so we need to be stronger with the quantity that we have right now...

btw, akmal and president of the college are the coordinators...we still don't have a kpm yet...from what i heard, many wanted afiq to be one...hopefully if he is chosen, he will be a better leader, perhaps...insyaAllah

والله أعلم

pohon semalu

Bismillah..

Untuk renungan bersama....

Pada suatu hari, Rasulullah s.a.w berjalan-jalan bersama puteri baginda, Saidatina Fatimah r.a. Setibanya mereka berdua di bawah sebatang pohon tamar, Fatimah terpijak pohon semalu, kakinya berdarah lalu mengadu kesakitan. Fatimah mengatakan kepada bapanya apalah gunanya pohon semalu itu berada di situ dengan nada yang sedikit marah. Rasulullah dengan tenang berkata kepada puteri kesayangannya itu bahawasanya pohon semalu itu amat berkait rapat dengan wanita. Fatimah terkejut.

Rasulullah menyambung kata-katanya lagi. Para wanita hendaklah mengambil pengajaran daripada pohon semalu ini dari 4 aspek.

Pertama, pohon semalu akan kuncup apabila disentuh. Ini boleh diibaratkan bahawa wanita perlu mempunyai perasaan malu (pada tempatnya).
Kedua, semalu mempunyai duri yang tajam untuk mempertahankan dirinya. Oleh itu, wanita perlu tahu mempertahankan diri dan maruah sebagai seorang wanita muslim.
Ketiga, semalu juga mempunyai akar tunjang yang sangat kuat dan mencengkam bumi. Ini bermakna wanita solehah hendaklah mempunyai keterikatan yang sangat kuat dengan Allah Rabbul Alamin.
Dan akhir sekali, semalu akan kuncup dengan sendirinya apabila senja menjelang.

Oleh itu, para wanita sekalian, kembalilah ke rumahmu apabila waktu semakin senja. Ambillah pengajaran dari semalu walau pun ia hanya sepohon tumbuhan yang kecil..

Wallahu a'la wa a'lam...

khas buat fa :D

title: permata yang dicari

Hadirnya tanpa kusedari
Menggamit kasih cinta bersemi
Hadir cinta insan padaku ini
Anugerah kurniaan Ilahi

Lembut tutur bicaranya
Menarik hatiku untuk mendekatinya
Kesopanannya memikat di hati
Mendamaikan jiwaku yang resah ini

Ya Allah
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikanlah hatiku
Dengan ketentuan-Mu

Dialah permata yang dicari
Selama ini baru kutemui
Tapi ku tak pasti rencana Ilahi
Apakah dia kan kumiliki
Tidak sekali dinodai nafsu
Akan kubatasi dengan syariat-Mu
Jika dirinya bukan untukku
Redha hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu

Ya Allah
Engkaulah tempat kubergantung harapanku
Kuharap diriku sentiasa di bawah rahmat-Mu

title: destinasi cinta

Menyingkap tirai hati
Mengintai keampunan
Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan
Tiap jejak nan bertapak
Debu kejahilan
Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata
Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka
Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani
Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari
Sebenarnya terlalu hampir
Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta
Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa
Tiada tenang ku temui
Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

C/O
Ku gelintar segenap maya
Dambakan sebutir hakikat
Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku
Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu
Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu
Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu
Wahai Tuhanku... Ya Allah...

halimatus sa'adiah

Kakimu melangkah lesu menuju ke jalan pulang
Kecewa kerana gagal mendapat bayi hartawan
Namun apakah yang akan kau beri sebagai jawapan
Jika ditanya mengapa kau gagal mendapatkannya

Tiba-tiba senyum si yatim itu menyapa
Tergugah deria ibu yang bersemi di jiwa
Biar Muhammad itu tanpa upah berganda
Namun hatimu rela bukan kerana harta

Halimatus Saadiah
Engkau ibu yang bertuah
Kau wanita penerima barakah
Dari desa pedalaman
Daerah di pinggiran
Kau menyusui insan pilihan

Kau pangku dia dan berubahlah segalanya
Badan yang terasa lesu kini bertenaga
Susu yang sedikit itu bertambah dengan segera
Peliharaan ternakan membiak subur berganda

Halimatus Saadiah, kau ibu barakah
Engkau pemula muqaddimah yang indah
Episod awal sirah Nabi junjungan mulia
Kau ibu susu yang bertuah

Pada sejarahmu terukir kenyataan
Tidak kan miskin jika membela Islam
Tidak hina meriba kebenaran yang mulia
Jangan takut jika kau beriman

painted smile

bismillah

due to the ongoing demands that i should update here that i took the grace to do so...actually, i do not have anything to write about, as i have just updated things at my other blog...

seems as this blog is for me to pour out my heart and soul, and my deepest feelings, i shall do so..

i have mixed feelings going back here this time...happy at last that i get to go home after two months in KL, sad that i didn't get to say goodbye to dearest friends, anxious about being a pm and starting my 2nd year...but mostly upset at not being able to meet this person again...and i didn't get to say goodbye...

this person has touched a special part in my heart...i regret not letting him know about my true feelings, yet i know i did the right by keeping it mum...

anyway, i have already wrote in another blog (for my view only) about my feelings towards this person...and i leave everything to Allah, because what He intends for me is the best for myself...

all of you know who he is...coz i rather not pen down the name...it might make me emotional...

btw, a friend had discovered his blog...and i thank her...as by reading the his blog, i might get to know him better...i admit, he is still a stranger to me...

hopefully, you guys pray the best for me...insyaAllah, i know that if Allah has destined us to be together, even distance could not keep us apart...

(i might sound too mushy, so do forgive me, i haven't quite get over him yet)

wallahu'alam

bismillah

this post was meant to be posted some four weeks ago...anyway, since i have painstakingly typed this long post, i decided not to delete it...

i've been to two postmortems..not on human bodies, but about the activities that i joined in...one was the explorace during maulidur rasul, and the other was the annual grand meeting of PMIUM (stands for Persatuan Mahasiswa Islam Universiti Malaya)...everything went fine..actually, i was hesitant to disclose my origin during the agm postmortem, but since they already knew about it, i might as well tell them personally, rather than hide the fact that i'm sporean...

reason being, this organization is known for its campus political involvement..many who were caught having any relation or participating actively with PMIUM were dealt severely...i don't want to participate in anything that's political, and so was hesitant in case they decided i might be a potential candidate for the upcoming elections and such...

in any case, i was already sought after....i just got a message yesterday asking my help to write an article on current issues in English for PMIUM...i don't mind helping as long as it's not something political that i have to write...if that's the case, then sayonara to them....sorry, but i value my good name in campus....i don't want to tarnish my good name with a simple case of badmouthing others

as for the other postmortem, we actually have to comment on activities done by balai Islam KUAZ...we, as in balai Islam committee members...and so i brought up the issue of us having big projects, but during those projects that we see ourselves work....when there were no big projects, balai Islam seems non-existant...but all in all, i congratulate ourselves for our success..the president for balai Islam himself admitted that balai Islam had gotten the most projects for the college...mabruk!!!

and yes, i had joined in a biz promoted by my leader for sports and recreation unit for raudhah camp...i can't call this person by his position all the time, so i will name him.. well, azmi introduced to me this top-up biz...i was reluctant at first, coz it seems like a hoax..but seeing as my friends' needs are greater than the risk involved, i decided to join...it's a simple biz actually...i just need to misscall or msg a certain number, and voila, your account has been top-upped... (is there such an expression??)

it has brought much ease to our life actually...now we don't need to frequent the shops for top-up slips...just text me and i'll do it for them..hehe

speaking of azmi, my friend and i have noticed much changes in his attitude...we used to be scared of him, coz he seems the rough and harsh....but after working with him on two activities, we're not so scared of him anymore...recently, he asked me for nasyids...i was surprised, naturally, as he doesn't seem the type to like nasyids...but anyway, even if it surprises me, i gave him a few songs...

huda kept saying that we managed to tarbiyyah him...but all thanks to God...we are only a medium, Allah is the only one that can change his servants....

wallahu a'la wa a'lam

ukhuwwah

bismillah

alhamdulillah, terungkai sudah segala teka-teki...aku bersyukur kerana tidak dipandang serong atas kejujuranku..aku berasa bebas setelah kuluahkan isi hatiku..seakan-akan selama ini, rahsia yang kusimpan merupakan beban ke atas diriku..

terima kasih kawan kerana menyokongku...tidak pernah ku terfikir bahawa kau juga sedar akan tingkah laku ku...dan tingkah lakunya...

bismillah

adakah aku berdosa
kerana melupakan janji
sedangkan apa yang kutinggalkan
bukanlah suatu taklif ke atas diriku

adakah aku harus disisihkan
atas sebab berlainan pemikiran

antara menepati janji dan meninggalkan maksiat
yang mana harus ku awla kan..

mengapa harus aku mengalah

ya Allah
hambaMu lemah

ya Allah
jika aku di jalan yang benar
maka pandulah aku terus ke jalan itu

andainya aku di jalan yang sesat
maka bantulah aku kembali ke jalan yang kau redhai

amiin