Bismillah

Now, i see more and more of my friends changing their status from 'single' to 'in a relationship'. Somehow, i felt disturbed by this fact. For those who have been married or engaged, i can understand.. Even for those who have been engaged, there are boundaries that you have to follow. Engagement is not yet married..but it's those that are having couples without any akad bonding them that i'm worried about...

This is discussed many times before. It is a topic many would like to run away from. But i still need to address this. Couples are not allowed in our religion. Having a special girl/boy friend is very intoxicating.. I know because i used to feel that way too..

It is not okay to be coupled with someone who is not your mahram when you're not married. Even if you are planning to marry with one another one day, it is still not okay for you to meet that special person every day, talk on the phone all the time and so on... What's more to touch one another's hands... Allah promised retribution for every action a man makes. You might not get that on the spot you did something.

It applies too in this case. Because you decide to defy The Almighty when you are in a relationship, when you are married, Allah might punish you now.. Punishment now before the punishment in the hereafter. Punish you by not making you feel at ease whenever your spouse is away. Punish you by creating suspicions and bad perceptions between two married parties.

Maybe this is one cause for high divorced rate nowadays. Their marriage were not blessed by Allah, just because of the mistake they did in the past. Mistake for not having a halal relationship. That is sad news...

So to all of you out there, please think twice before you decide to have a relationship. We do not want to invite Allah's wrath, do we???

Wallahu a'lam

Write

Bismillah

Felt compelled to write this.

Before i had any blogs, i can only wonder what lies in writing...i mean, what do writers feel about their writing...?? i have never indulge myself in writing during my early teen years because i thought i was more of the analytical sort of person. I've never enjoyed myself when it came to writing compositions. Every sentence that i had to construct seemed like a burden to me.

As time goes by, i felt more and more motivated to write. I was very envious with those who can write well, maybe primarily, they were known by many. I used to be a low profile person. Somehow, at one point of time, i felt as if i need to come out of my cocoon. I want people to know me. That's conceit...

After i get to know certain people in my life, my mindset was changed. I no longer wanted to write to be known, but to write so that i can reach many with my words and may my writing benefit them in a good way, even if it's little. There is so much truth in the saying, 'the pen is mightier than the sword'.

The benevolent prophet Muhammad saw also encouraged his followers to give out knowledge even if it's a sentence. One can do that by writing.

Personally, i've gone through many stages in writing. Before this, i just write so that i can brush up on my language... Now, i write because i have the passion to do so. I may not be able to conjure up flowery snippets and stuffs, but i enjoyed writing so much... Maybe if i'm ready, i can publish my own book...

Wallahu a'lam

Bismillah

Terfikir tentang topik perbincangan di blog seorang kenalan...tentang cuti. Maklumlah sang penulis kan sedang bercuti...

Cuti-cuti nie nak buat ape ye?? Macam-macam dalam fikiran, dan terutama sekali nak pergi shopping... Entah lah, sejak kebelakangan nie, makin rajin shopping...tapi jangan salah faham tau, bukan shopping sembarangan, shopping keperluan selalunya. Sehinggakan adik pun tanye,"Angah nie asyik shopping je..."

Sebenarnya, die jealous..ye la, ape die nak beli sumenye ditegah..tapi bersebab tau, bukan sembarangan...

Tapi bile fikir2 balik, nak blaja lagi 2thn lebih...banyak duit nak gunekan untuk tampung pembelajaran. Rasenye datang keinsafan untuk shopping lagi...takpela, yang mane bole gunekan lagi, gunekan dulu (spt kasut, baju, beg dan sbgnya)

Cuti nie sebaiknya digunekan untuk timba ilmu. Tak payah pegi jauh, dekat ruma pun bole timba ilmu...dan yang mempunyai laptop sendiri, lagi senang...knowledge at your fingertips...(ini pun reminder kepada penulis)

Cuti yang kite rasekan sekarang nie cume sementara. Cuti yang sebenar-benar cuti ialah di akhirat kelak...bagi orang-orang yang berjaya, mereka akan bercuti di Syurga. Sbb walaupun kite cuti sekarang, tapi kite tak terlepas dari taklif kite sebagai hamba Allah swt. Oleh itu, walaupun kite sedang bercuti sekarang, jangan ibadat pun kite cuti-cuti jugak..

Apa-apa pun, kepada yang bercuti, selamat bercuti... :D

i'm public

Bismillah

after a long time it's been private, i'm making this blog public..
hehe, hopefully with this, i can have more constructive comments regarding my posts..

Wallahu a'lam

apa nak jadi??

Bismillah

aku tak tau..apa nak jadi dengan anak perempuan Melayu...
aku malu sendiri..
walaupun bukan aku yang dipaparkan
tapi itu kaum aku...

hijab
pakainya hijab, kau telah berjanji
janji akan menutupi dirimu
melitupi kehormatanmu...

tapi apa yang aku nampak sekarang..??
hijab hanya fesyen
yang digandingkan dengan pakaian yang ketat
yang jarang
yang tipis...

aku malu melihatmu begitu
tidakkah kau malu dengan dirimu sendiri...
sehingga dirimu menjadi bualan lelaki
menjadi bahan cercaan dan hinaan

kembalilah ke pangkal jalan
tuntutlah ilmu pemakaian yang tepat
jika kau belum bersedia
jangan kau menarik kami sekali
untuk dicerca dan dihina...

pakailah ia kerana tuntutan Ilahi
bukan kerana trend masa kini...

Wallahu a'lam

lakium + syeikh yusuf estes

Bismillah

Meant to write this a long time ago...okay, maybe not so long time..just two weeks before...just waiting for the right moment..this is the right moment i guess..i have, again, changed my blog colours and name..

After exams ended, i decided to straight go home and have a long, long rest...but then there was a leadership camp...i like camping, but i don't really care for leadership camps...but since the price was great (actually more than great)..i mean RM15 for a three day camp...?? it's really cheap right...??

okay, i'll stop digressing..

i was elated to know that we'll be staying in a resort...i always like to grab any chance to go to any chalets, resorts or hotels...because i couldn't afford if it's personal...but when we arrived at the youth centre where the camp will be held, i saw no buildings that could put up with 150 youth...naturally, i was perplexed...questions after questions raised in my mind as to where we would be staying for the next three days...

eventually my questions were answered...we were told to build our own camp at the campsite...personally, i've done this before and have gone through the painstaking process living in camps...but i was truly not ready for the rainy season...imagine flood in your camp..?? all of your clothes were drenched..i mean, i even had to wear the jubah i wore for the first day, for the last day too...

i guess i even couldn't care what i looked like...even though i like to look prim and proper (really..!!!) all the time...this time, i was not in the mood to do so...

okay, enough of the complaints...what i really wanted to write about was the input i received...these people are not much older than me, but they are certainly mature in their thinking...and their spirit to do something for Islam is so inspiring that i felt i really wanted to join them...

they made me feel so inferior of myself...in a good way really..i wanted to improve myself more and more each day...even though i have been an Islamic-educated student for years, and currently still, my knowledge for this holy religion is still mediorce...i have lots to learn

sometimes i feel that my spirit is being held back when i'm back at home...maybe it's because i'm not surrounded by people who wants to fight for Islam...i mean, they practices Islam, but that's just it...but whenever i'm over there, there is so much Islamic ambience that i'm really comfortable staying there for long (yes, but i miss home too later)

and syeikh yusuf estes' public lecture was just great...he touched on the topic in a light manner, so no one can feel offended by what he said...

when he first entered, he looked so much like a santa claus...really, seeming he's a caucasian and has a long white beard..he has a big build and a gangster-like demeanour, he looked fierce...however he was anythning but fierce...behind those, he is actually a very sweet person...

and he ended his lecture in a very charming manner...i'm not able to compose well, so if anyone really wants to know, then you have to talk to me..

i'm really grateful that i did not go back home immediately...these two events that i went to were really informative and educational...even if it means i have to forgo 4 days of freedom...

wallahu a'lam

final let go

Bismillah

As titled above, i am finally letting go of a special person who have entered into my life...
The person is moving on with his life, and i should do so too...

Before i saw for myself how he moved on, he is still at the back of my mind..even though we are physically apart, in my mind, he is always there..i know the way i'm saying this is so unlike a true Muslim woman who values herself...i'm just trying to talk out loud to finally ridding myself from any excess feelings...

life has shown me its greatness these few months back...if i can overcome difficult situations before, this is just another difficult phase that i have to go through...

Oh Allah
Guide me through all the adversaries...

and dear, dear friends...i really appreciate all of you being there for me, especially in my times of need...may Allah bless you with the best of health and imaan..InsyaAllah...Amiin...

Wallahu a'la wa a'lam

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